ramz

I yawned a few hours ago. It wasn’t a normal yawn. I.LITERALLY.DISLODGED.MY.JAW! Searing pain! I don’t yawn. I’m a very energetic person.

Granted, I’ve slept an average of 4 hours a day since monday. Which is a good thing. I’m somewhat in the zone. Finally. It’s been at least several months since I’ve found myself in this state. Let me explain.

I used to be VERY productive, and had a lot of endurance. My record stands at 4 days on end, working on my final project (undergrad). Four days with long, concentrated, and very productive hours. Since that time, since moving to G., I seemed to have lost that. I still crammed, and managed to learn a lot, or get a lot done in very little time, but this was more pressure than passion.

Doing my research project almost a year ago, it took me a month to actually start, another month to actually start work. Luckily, some logistical issues were in the way and my deadline was extended. I managed to pull my act together and produce a great quality project in the last two weeks. Too many things are involved in this story for me to really tell it. Personal issues, disappointment, lack of motivation, academic issues, lack of perspective and vision, etc…

Anyway, it was better when I started on my thesis. I managed to work relatively regularly, but the hours were neither long, nor productive. Finally, a week or so ago, I got the bug. I am back in the zone. Again, numerous factors played a role. I’m still not as productive as I’d like to be, or can be. I’m not REALLY working the long hours. But I’m up early, in bed late, and getting decent amounts of work done.

The yawn comes in here. I’m tired. I think that’s one of the first times I’ve admitted it. I’m glad that I’m tired because of work, and not due to laziness. You know lazy tiresomeness? I hate that bitch. I yawned. Damn near sucked in the ozone layer.

The purpose of this rant? I yawned. And I’m working well. And I should go to bed.

Night y’all.